Sunday, December 03, 2006

been a long time since i've posted something here... life seems to have changed so much since the last post.. at least one indication that life's moving :)
increasingly realizing that life has a destination... this day to day living seems to be just a filler. there's a growing sense of uneasiness about the way life is moving, now that i've figured out the pattern. there are days when work keeps one on a high and sufficiently occupied to not think about anything else - 'am too busy' is the standard explanation one gives onself. then come those days when either work goes down, an emotional tie gets strained or suddenly, out of the blue, things stop working for you. in those few days, the philosophical self seems to suddenly wake up and everything feels meaningless, questions are raised about the way life is going... but well, come the next cycle and suddenly all the doubts vanish into thin air and life is normal again till the next drop.
what are we doing? why is there a constant emptiness in life? there are things one gets passionate about - some people are passionate about their jobs, some have hobbies and some are passionately in love. over time the passion fades, the enthusiasm wanes and things look bleak.
we all know there is a bigger purpose to life. but what is it? i know its different for us all. some poeple find purpose in charitable works, some find it in expression of some kind of art, and for a lucky few their jobs lead to satisfaction and a purpose.
what am i here for? will i just keep looking for the bigger purpose and never find it? will life be a constant roller coaster of emotional upheavels?
something just doesn't feel right. why aren't we taught about this stage in school? why aren't we prepared for life instead of being prepared to be a doctor or an engineer?
praying seems to help in these times, but sometimes one wonders what's the right question to ask our good lord up there?


Blogger moodysinger said...

The words seem universal. Some years ago, I thought of a hypothesis "Life is an excuse for death". Now it may sound overtly pessimistic, but i find it true.. We all are waiting for the ultimate truth. In normal circumstance, all of us are in queue as per our ages. Our lifetimes are actually waitng times. Our schools tell us what all is available on life's menu to kill time. We look at others to find what they have chosen to get maximum enjoyment. We follow them.
Some of us are happy, most of us aren't.
The former types are either the ones who are fully enjoying their time or the ones who are happy to find something to occupy time.
The latter types are either the ones who aren't happy with whatever they have to kill time or the ones who don't have anything to kill time.
Anyone can be in any category at any time depending upon who in the queue do you choose to follow (identify with).
Any sense in the above or should i finish with these lines by Ghalib:
"bak raha hoon junoon mein kya kya kucch,
kucch na samjhe khuda kare koi"


Thursday, December 07, 2006 4:10:00 PM  
Blogger In search of joy said...

Thought provoked...

Well I only wanna say that change is the constant part of life...

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Blogger adi said...

first of all, good to have u back
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second, u've worded my feelings...but the answers i'm looking for, are eluding u also...i know one thing, i wont stop asking the q's...

u take care n pls do stay in touch

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